I Loved And I Lost And Now Iam Not Sure How I Feel.

Iam writing this cause i’ve just come from a breakup and right now I feel great.But there are days that I will feel like crap and I will wanna pick up the phone and call or text.This peice is to remind me why I shouldn’t.

The reason I decided to end it is because  I have been so unhappy.I think Iam just realizing this now.At some point my feelings were so all over the place that I thought I was bipolar.At some point the thought of her made me so sad that I had to make a concious effort not to think of her.I had to meditate just to get the thought of her out of my mind.I liked her .More than I should have.But she constantly hurt and disrespected me.She gave me more than a few sleepless nights (not metaphorically).

But for some reason I just couldnt leave.But yesterday I did it.I just hope that at the end of all this i’ll be okay.


16 thoughts on “I Loved And I Lost And Now Iam Not Sure How I Feel.

  1. Now you’re sure what you want out of a relationship, what you can put up with and what you can’t. Life is a learning process and we grow from these experiences.

    Walking away doesn’t make you cowardly, it only shows your strong will. Let yourself heal gradually.

    Don’t avoid thinking about it or what could have been if circumstances were different. Give yourself time to think about it (cos you’re only human). After you’ve stressed over it enough, bury those thoughts and never dig it up again.

    You’ll be okay, your fairy godmother assures you 😎 and she never meant to write an epistle but these things happen😯.

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  2. I have a whole, private blog dedicated to a 3-4 yr relationship. The last 6 months of posts are full of “don’t do this again” and all the reasons why I shouldn’t ever call him again. It is a good thing to write about it. Time helps.

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      1. Well I didn’t for a long time. It was a ton of on and off again. When I finally realized he was making things up in his mind about me, I was finally able to end it. It was still hard, of course. Painful but I knew it was better for me. I’ll probably never be in a long term relationship again but that’s better than what I was going through.

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  3. I think you’re a very strong person for taking this step even though it can be heart wrenching and painful. I think you’ll find yourself learning to be happy in yourself and I have a lot of respect for you for making such a difficult decision most people don’t. You had enough strength in yourself to know she was disrespecting you and hurting you, for that you’re brave. It does get easier, I can promise you that. Putting yourself first isn’t selfish, it’s extremely important to make sure you’re okay. If you ever need someone to talk to, I’m always available. Keep your head up, you got this.

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  4. Even I cannot begin to put into words how he made me feel but you make me want to. This is a bold move and I hope by now…almost a year later…you have undergone a whole lot of healing because you deserve it as much as you deserve love.🙏🏾❤

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